Muahs!

I realized I haven't blogged about my very first Valentines day yet. I've always been stuck in long distance relationships, never had the chance to celebrate Valentines day with anyone...and this year I finally did!:)

My locker!!:) Wasn't this sweet?!?

Okay, I may have told a lot of you how I think Valentines day is waaaaay overrated. Still, this was my very 1st..so I kind of wanted to make it more memorable.

Although it was in the middle of school week, so there wasnt any time to go anywhere for dinner and stuff, but we manage to make it our own.

I looked at my blogpost last year:

http://dorisbong.blogspot.com/2007/02/post-valentine.html

I thought, I had a pretty nice time too...ogling at my handsome dentist! which reminds me..I've yet to see him this year:)

I got Kevin these air jordan shoes. My eyes are as blue as the shoes!!:) Creepy I know, gonna throw them out soon.
I suppose this is gonna be his ONLY gift of the year, coz im broke...plus he really likes them, I know this because he gave such a goooooood hint:
(his computer)

Today marks the 4th month of our relationship. Relatively new...yet it seems like it's been forever since the 1st one.

I'm going through an emotional rollercoaster. I sincerely pity Kevin for having to deal with me...I really wish this is just an excuse of my PMS which I believe is coming in just a few days~:P

Still, I feel so vulnerable and sad. I know it's all because I'm not doing things I am suppose to be doing. Such a waste of time during this reading week. Blaaahs...
Feelings of homesickness, confusion of what I want, fusteration of what I cannot get, and disappointment of how certain things turn out.....so EMO of me~
I had my 1st panic attack too..over stupid things that I apparently lose sight of, even when I was holding onto it 5 mins ago. AIKS...bad bad bad.

anyhoooo...I guess it's a good thing that I can't really find things to blog about lately. Means that my life is getting a bit more interesting and I am occupied!!:) To my girls and mister lepiak miss you all very much and thanks for all the concern.....hugs!!

PS. Happy four months baby...I love you.

A thought...

I realize that when I love, I put too much in. So much that, it's hard to pull out.
It's true..only God's love doesn't disappoint.
Only God's love is constant..Only God is forever.

Seriously, I miss home. I wish mom and dad were here. That way, I won't have to feel all lonely at home without Donna. I'm sorry Donna, I know how u feel now.

Today was not the first time I get disappointed. Nothing ever seems to go right. Perhaps I'm too demanding. Still, all my expectations are crushed...maybe I should have NO expectations at all. I usually don't like to expect, but it sucks when people make you expect.
If only he was honest, if he was excited enough about us...if only he didn't put all his failures on me...making me go through lessons of his past mistakes. Over and over again I have to say..that this is different..this is NOT the same. I suppose he wil never get it:(

3 whole days all to myself....I hate holidays.

Le Chef Kevin

Today was simple yet meaningful in its own way.
I am content, joyful and blessed.

I got to talk to a dear friend whom I've not met in ages. Someone who I mentioned as my spiritual sister, an inspiration and a smart, beautiful intelligent girl. Every conversation with her is refreshing and inspiring...and I am so very proud and happy for her. Love you girl!!

Then, I got ready for work. It's my only source of income now for I've quit the rest of my jobs. Winters are terrible...all I want to do is stay in bed:(

After work, Kevin came to meet me in school. We walked around school for a bit, had a nice short talk..then I bused home and met my cutie sister....
Made a silly video of her which I plan to put on youtube!!:)
She's snoring now, and I'm getting read to study for my 2 midterms on MONDAY~
Can't wait to be efficient tonight~:)

Kay, as I need to start studying. Here's some picture for today~:)

Never underestimate the things contained in this plastic Safeway bag. It made a certain girl very very Happy today:), ME!

The wonderful goodies inside:

hehe.... Kevin packed me dinner today...I'm eating it as I'm typing this:) *BIG BIG smiles on my face!!*
I'm not sure if every item made him thought of what Im thinking (I usually think too much anyway).....but, the
CHEETO's: reminds me of how we keep munching on Donna's Cheeto's when shes not at home..I always try to stop him, but unfortunatly for him, I don't buy as much junk food as Donna so he's always so tempted to eat Donna's food....bLlaaah.
Orange: he just likes to be healthy, or he thinks I should be healthy...
Plastic fork: He probably thinks I didn't do my dishes!! haha JK, being the pig I am, I would have wanted to eat it immediatly.
Chocolate Milk: No milk in my fridge belongs to ME:( hehe....This wonderful Bento box shows you what a neat freak he is. He needs to arrange his tofu's in a uncreative, boring, organized way.

I am LAZY!! Right after those exams..I have to do my laundry!! I'm running outta things to wear. Unlike Linzhi...I won't lock myself out of my room when I need to get my clean clothes...unfortunatly too, I wont get to meet and handsome half-naked strangers:P

Donna just sent a whole lot of Chinese New Year cards and pictures to families and relatives in Malaysia. The remaining pictures are up on our wall.....

Now...its not just plain, white and boring~